jesus. husband. babies

jesus. husband. babies

Wednesday, August 8, 2012

Summer was fun...

Serious Seattle. Get. It. Together. It is August and the high today is (supposed to be) 69. Lame, especially since I just came from a weekend in Yakima where it was 100!

We can enjoy the cloudy days too:

Don't let the smile fool you, she has ZERO desire to crawl or stay on her tummy.

Tenn couldn't stop telling the neighbor kid about us going to Target yesterday. We need a life.

He is smelling it :) not eating it.

"I know milk does a body good but how much milk have YOU been drinkin'"

And a bath after the park is always a hit.

 Happy Wednesday.


I think that the longer I live the more real this phrase becomes: Life Isn't Fair.

As a youth you are VERY aware life isn't fair, well as aware as you can be. Sibling gets something and you don't. Friend gets a new car at 16 and you don't. The list goes on and on and on.

Then you grow up and become an adult and you can still think the same way "So and So got a new car? THAT isn't fair!".

Then the day comes when you realize that life is totally not fair, in the most real and exhausting way. 

In the past 2 months My family has lost 2 very amazing men. And you want to know what? It isn't fair, not at all. They had more life to live, for Grandpa Ridout it wasn't fair that he got cancer, he lived his life loving Jesus and building the Kingdom. For Steve it isn't fair that at 48 he passed away, a healthy man who has 2 wonderful kids and a wife that is amazing, Steve too spent his life building the Kingdom.

 Cole Family at Disney World (Steve is in the front left of the picture)

 Grandpa Ridout (Lolo to the grand babies) with  baby Tenn

So yes, life isn't fair, sometimes it just really really is terrible and exhausting.

But what else isn't fair is the free gift of GRACE and the confidence in knowing that this isn't the last time we will see Grandpa Ridout or Steve. There is peace in knowing that they are in the presence of God.

So yes, the untimely death of people we love dearly isn't fair but salvation isn't either, so I won't complain.

1 Thessalonians 4:13-14
 Brothers and sisters, we do not want you to be uninformed about those who sleep in death, so that you do not grieve like the rest of mankind, who have no hope. For we believe that Jesus died and rose again, and so we believe that God will bring with Jesus those who have fallen asleep in him.

Thursday, June 21, 2012

6 Month Checkup

It has been rough.

Multiple times a day I would ask myself "How can 2 kids, from the same gene pool, be so ridiculously different?". Tenn never cried, never had tummy issues and never left me feeling like he despised me and just cried in spite of me. But this girl, she tested me and my faith in infants. Colic and reflux that lasted until 5 months. A sensitive stomach that continues at 6 months.

But we are figuring it out and getting into a groove, a groove that speaks to my soul and makes me smile (about 95% of the time).

My sweet Ava has an adoring brother and just broke out her first 2 teeth in the past 3 days.

They are fun, they are getting more fun everyday and I am remembering why I always dreamed of being a mama.

I can't wait to see what is ahead :)

Sunday, January 15, 2012

Game Changer

I feel like a.... a.... Well, actually I feel like a person who is not quite able to put together a complete thought. I was just reading a book (about mothering) and there was a personality quiz with words like "Self assertive", "reliable", "go getter" and "leader" and as I was reading the list of words (which I was supposed to circle if they applied) I realized I was unable to process the meaning of any of the words. I mean, I have heard them, I have used them and I have taken multiple personality tests but I could not wrap my mind around what they meant (or if any applied to me).

Why you may ask?

I am kinda tired and suffering from "Mom Brain", yes, I looked it up (on WEB MD) and I have it.

Mom Brain: The inability to think, process or understand many normal activities due to a recent (or ever) child birth. Usually lasts around 1 to 18 years (has been known to effect a person for the remainder of their life). Person(s) may forget simple things (like how to read an analog clock, or digital in extreme cases, how to remember what day of the week it is or what things may be scheduled on said "day").

Causes of Mom Brain are as follows,  Exhibit A:

Exhibit B:
Yeppers, I had a baby. She is now 4 weeks old and her name is Ava Elizabeth Cole. She is a doll (minus colic)!
"MOM! You are so embarrassing, get this off my head!"
Tenn LOVES to dance for, explain the inter workings of Buzz and Woods and talk to his Baby Sissy. SO sweet.

He loves her.


She has mastered the surprised look:

My sweet babes. It has been quite the learning curve but I am feeling more and more "at home" with my family of four. Oh my goodness, family of 4? What the heck?